Reflection of 2019. My year recapped.

OK, I had a rough year, I’m not going to lie. The road was rough and bumpy, but smoothed out and got a whole lot better. Life always has its ups and downs anyway.

My husband and I are going through debt consolidation, due to poor choices when we were younger, so I worked a ton of over time. I wore myself out. It has really paid off literally because we are also out of debt, and on our way to financial freedom!

It was challenging balancing being a Mom, and working a strenuous, physically, and emotionally demanding job. But were almost to the end of this road.

I’m so exhausted, and I missed my kids but I was able to cut one of my days, and only work four days a week.

In the summer I was going to go on vacation with my parents, but I had a panic attack and I didn’t go.

While they were on vacation my Uncle, that I was close to, had a massive heart attack at the age of 63, and was placed on life support until my Aunt could drive out of state to take him off life support. He died instantly. I was crushed and went into a depression.

My adopted cousin, whom I never met came out for a visit. This cheered me up. I went to the doctor and I increased my antidepressant. This has really helped me. My life is improving.

We all die, and reach the end of the road. It is something that is true about life. We cannot hang onto loved ones, we need to let them go. We don’t live forever.

6 months beforehand, my Aunt, my Mom’s wife, was killed by crossing the highway and was hit by a truck, and died instantly, no suffering.

One week before my dear Uncle passed, my other cousins Dad died of a stroke. I grew up with my Aunt and Uncle that passed. They weren’t blood but still.

My blood Uncle, my Dad’s brother, crushed my heart. But it was his time, and there is nothing I can do to go back and change this. I let him go, at the end of the road of his life, and he is in a better place.

Then my Executive Director, who was an outstanding women, passed away young at the age of 36. She was only 9 months younger than me. She has a massive heart and her heart stopped in her sleep.

I was also crushed about this, but tomorrow is never promised.

Now I am on the upside of life, because I am only working 4 days a week. I have quality time with my family, and time for my hobbies. I almost have $32,000 of debt paid off. We will be able to move to a better neighborhood after this.

Life is looking upward, but you never know what tomorrow brings, I will be able to deal with what life throws at me.

 

Thrift store shopping.

I went thrift store shopping today. I love what you can find, and you pay nothing, compared to retail price. I found work shoes, pants, a complete outfit for my daughter, this cute Thumper shirt, and cute owl sweatshirt. I was getting cold, and realized I donated too many clothes, since I try to de-cluttered.

Thrift store shopping helps me budget, and helped me be a stay at home Mom, when I was at home with the kids.

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